Wednesday, November 11, 2009

As the days pass bye I seem to find out more than I expected. We have had all the talks, we have visted each others homes, yet I still feel how she was raised will always be a problem for us. She displays personality traits of both families and feel a sense of confusion on many levels. We dont speak of the one area of her adoption that is how her parents really adopted all four children. Im taking a long hard look at how much space I need now.

Thursday, August 27, 2009


I struggle with not being able to spend the time with all of my daughters. They have not walked my journey so as my youngest put it '' I cant totally understand it because it didn't happen to me". My adaughter is 1000 miles away she does a great job keeping me updated with pics and emails but the whole never feels full. Id love to meet her family and see them once. No real interest has been expressed nor has she tried to gather us. I don't like feeling the Limbo stage of reunion.